junkies .

I panicked when I realized I had a loser crush on you, Only cause before I didn’t think you felt that way too.
I panicked when I told you how I feel, I didn’t think it would be a big deal.
I panicked the first time I went in your room, It has this longing sort of gloom.
I panicked the first time you held me so tight, An honestly I can’t get over that night. Then you kissed me, At first I kissed you back, An in a instant I was beyond just happy, Sorry my lips were chapped. Honestly when I’m with you
I feel the safe & comfort that I haven’t felt since my best friend was alive, Who would of thought that you’d be that guy? There’s only one reason why I’m so hurt, An I’ll never know if you were serious or being a flirt.
Jacob I know you remember what you said, After the kiss an we laid in bed.
I asked you why you kissed me, You looked at me an said “I don’t know, because it felt right.”, I have a lot of questions & pain I try to not let you see, An its all because of that night.
I could ask you again, Why didn’t you tell me you just wanted to fuck that night? Or I can ask how you’ve been, Idk, just treat the next girl that comes along right.

"If my life is going to mean anything, I have to live it myself."

Rick Riordan, The Lightning Thief (via kushandwizdom)